(Hi, I’m still talking about career stuff and work situations and whatnot, so if you’ve had enough of this blather may I recommend visiting this website instead, which, if you’re like me, will leave you shaking your fist at the screen and mumbling darkly about how that is too a wizard, you know a goddamn wizard when you see one.)

I have wasted a big chunk of my life succumbing to inertia. Whether it was drinking, not getting in shape, sticking with an unrewarding job because it was too much work to make a change, not pursuing my personal interests beyond cursory distractions — it’s only been in the last few years that I really feel like I’ve started to break out of my holding patterns.

A big part of that has to do with parenthood. For me, the sea changes parenthood brought to my life have been so challenging it’s helped kick my ass out of my comfort zone. It’s reminded me that big rewards often require big sacrifices, it’s helped me realize that I am able to accomplish so much more than I tend to give myself credit for.

For the first time I truly believe I can do more, careerwise, than I’m doing now. I believe in my abilities and I believe I am marketable. I believe that given the right set of circumstances I could take the big terrifying step into freelancing full time — and for once, fully owning my professional success. My career aspirations boil down to this: I want to get out of it what I put into it. I believe the path for me to achieve that goal is working for myself.

There’s little to complain about with my job as it stands. I have a good salary, I get cushy benefits, I have a completely relaxed and malleable schedule. If I were to make any big adjustments I’d have to face all kinds of challenges, starting with the financial ones — if I made less than I do now but spent the same on childcare, the impact on our budget would be significant, maybe even insurmountable. I know from my experience being unemployed or on maternity leave that being at home full time has the potential to make me unhappy: lonely, resentful, and downright weird. I harbor no illusions that eliminating the physical separation between work and home would be without its difficulties when it comes to maintaining a sense of schedule and focus.

On the one hand, I think, why even consider trading comfort for the unknown? Why take on the dangerous possibility of making a change for the worse, especially when I’ve got my family to consider?

On the other, the knowledge that success takes hard work and risk.

I could tell myself that I’ll pursue my dreams at some later date, maybe when the kids are older, but why? There is no better time for me. I am strong and capable and I can do it all — I can be a great mom and I can make a happy life for my family and I can delight employers and I can run my own business. I know this.

I also know this: you can’t sit back and wait for good things to happen. When it comes to anything worth doing, you have to be willing to step up. I’ve gotten my shit together in so many ways over the last few years. The question I’m mulling over is, what else am I capable of?

Do you have a story about taking on risk in order to pursue a dream? I’d love to hear it.

Comments

138 Responses to “Objects in mirror”

  1. figreeimiff on March 2nd, 2009 9:59 pm

    почему в нынешние времена поэзия не популярна?

  2. Agrinnyepheri on March 3rd, 2009 1:07 am

    спасибо за интересный сайт

  3. AbseldAidesee on March 3rd, 2009 4:35 pm

    где держать деньги во время кризиса?

  4. cloliofaclend on March 3rd, 2009 9:14 pm

    У нашего старосты четыре радости: лошади пропали, коров не найдут, два

  5. romiemotaScet on March 4th, 2009 12:24 am

    Нельзя никак, а сам и руку назад (т. е. нельзя ли как?).

  6. stooriniHeeve on March 4th, 2009 7:09 pm

    Что воскресенье, то новоселье (т. е. шатается).

  7. Dizedakeidiox on March 4th, 2009 10:29 pm

    Была бы пыль, да люди б сторонились.

  8. apendissefs on March 5th, 2009 2:37 am

    Любил дед чужой обед. Чужой и хлеб слаще калача.

  9. cidderhance on March 5th, 2009 6:17 am

    Кабы бог не дал топора, так бы топиться давно пора.

  10. purbimurnorie on March 5th, 2009 8:14 pm

    Заветного не продают. На завет и цены нет.

  11. Oxythigutty on March 5th, 2009 11:31 pm

    В нитку вытянулся. Кости да кожа.

  12. Preolmess on March 7th, 2009 7:53 pm

    Не всем чернецам (или: Не всякому старцу) в игумнах быть.

  13. BealiBeipse on March 7th, 2009 11:01 pm

    Была бы изба нова, а сверчки будут.

  14. prokpeeplay on March 8th, 2009 2:33 am

    После казанской дождь пойдет – все лунки нальет.

  15. cevioubbivips on March 10th, 2009 6:36 am

    Не все то золото, что светит (блестит).

  16. HadaAmbib on March 10th, 2009 5:24 pm

    живи. Пропади мой лихой, не изведши меня, а изведши меня и пр.

  17. Wranuachene on March 10th, 2009 8:32 pm

    Либо слушать, либо ничего не слышать.

  18. Nodyboavy on March 10th, 2009 11:39 pm

    У бога выслужишь, у людей никогда (о неблагодарности).

  19. Beickergink on March 11th, 2009 6:23 am

    Нет лучше брани, как: Никола с нами!

  20. goacraria on March 11th, 2009 9:53 pm

    он является во сне.

  21. encawaypeva on March 12th, 2009 1:01 am

    Пил мадеру, да досталось и спине и мундеру (солдатск.).

  22. HeKideottetek on March 12th, 2009 8:30 pm

    при Самозванце).

  23. agrillaTise on March 13th, 2009 4:06 am

    Недалеко до молочка: всего одна ночка (с последнего дня поста).

  24. Expalloxsoand on March 13th, 2009 11:42 am

    Кто донских лошадей объезжает, тот отца и мать не почитает.

  25. DialiRerpaype on March 13th, 2009 8:15 pm

    За косу выкуп, а смотрины даром (свадебнsq обычай).

  26. SastScousaf on March 13th, 2009 11:13 pm

    Муж за чарку, жена за черпалку.

  27. edincisminoma on March 14th, 2009 4:09 pm

    Пришел гость из гостей, съел барана без костей; гость сыт и баран цел

  28. Sognaittevani on March 14th, 2009 7:16 pm

    Не велика птица колпица.

  29. CunteeBeelume on March 14th, 2009 11:13 pm

    Плохо, что худо; а и того плоше, как и худого нет.

  30. Nereasypele on March 15th, 2009 4:38 pm

    Стар да упрям, ни людям, ни нам.

  31. catDuathe on March 16th, 2009 3:40 am

    Пуля виноватого найдет. Стреляй в куст, пуля виноватого найдет.

  32. biagbreed on March 16th, 2009 6:09 pm

    Писаные лапотки да пестрые онучи, так и подымай ноги покруче!

  33. Faxerurne on March 16th, 2009 8:34 pm

    Хлеба хлебом не перевабишь (или: не перезовешь).

  34. Whedeglyday on March 16th, 2009 10:58 pm

    Торгу на три алтына, а долгу на пять.

  35. Rerjantanda on March 17th, 2009 1:24 am

    Злому человеку не прибавит (или: не продлит) бог веку.

  36. reogradeNap on March 17th, 2009 5:21 am

    Что в сердце варится, на лице не утаится.

  37. Unmaccazormah on March 17th, 2009 5:29 pm

    К ненастью соль волгнет (сыреет).

  38. mapsEpheseE on March 17th, 2009 8:01 pm

    Согнута в дугу, летом на лугу, зимой на крюку (коса).