May
18
May 18, 2007
JB’s view tonight (sent from his phone):
Their plan is to summit Hood early in the AM, depending on weather. I’m sending crossed-fingers their way.
Tomorrow the work starts in earnest on the remodel — excavation and demolition of the existing carport. I imagine there will be a thrilling amount of noise and machinery. Also, tonight is the last night we’ll have a front door for quite some time.
Also also, my son bit me.
I could use some distractions on this mostly-lame Friday night, so . . . can we talk? Here’s my question. Do you have religion, spirituality?
I think of myself as agnostic, in that I do not hold any beliefs (including the belief that there is no god). I have a prevailing sense of “I don’t know”. I am not drawn to Christian beliefs, I do not feel any truth in my heart for them, but that feeling extends to all religions that I know of.
Since Riley’s birth I sometimes feel such a strong desire for belief that I understand, in some way, the need for spirituality. But it is not part of me, not anything Christian anyway. Would I like to believe that in the case of some horrible outcome I have the chance of seeing my son again, in heaven? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes, of course.
But, here I am, with my son in my arms and my faith in science and the life we are gifted with. If we become worm food, then let us live that pre-worm life in the best way we know how. And afterwords? Well, I can think of worse outcomes than fertilizing the earth.
Your turn:
May
16
May 16, 2007
Hello from Cupertino, which someone described to me earlier this evening as: “If you think of the Bay Area as a wang, you’re in the glands right now—Cupertino is like the taint.” I have no idea if this is geographically or philosophically accurate, but our drive here from the airport was quite pleasant. I saw a deer, even.
It always feels so weird to be in a hotel room by myself, like I’ve been transported to some other universe where everything is made out of veneered balsa wood and the bathroom fan is bizarrely loud and everything familiar is a million miles away. It’s lonesome. I miss my family.
And at the same time WOO HOO! I’M ALL ALONE! I have free wireless and a can of macadamia nuts filched from the ‘refreshment center’ and a pile of magazines and I can sleep sideways on the bed if I want. O, the luxury.
3 random things:
Thing the First
The internet is freaky. I saw Mighty Girl had linked to Sarah Hepola, who is a writer I have long admired (and was too shy to approach at JournalCon in Austin) and is thankfully now blogging again (you must read!), and then I followed a link from Sarah’s blog to one of her articles at the Morning News, where she linked to a video of my good friend Jen’s son Theo (Theo is totally a viral video star now, by the way). So random! Six degrees of the blogosphere.
Thing the Second
I have long resisted Battlestar Galactica, despite my similar resistance to Firefly and my eventual total devotion to that show. Well, I watched one episode on my iPod earlier (from season 1) and wow, it was REALLY good. I hate it when I drink the Koolaid so late in the game.
Thing the Third
JB said Riley asked for Mama tonight, and oh man, you have no idea how good that makes me feel. Sometimes I think I’m just a cherry on the delicious sundae that is JB, but that’s okay. As long as my boy loves maraschino, too.
-
My product review site:
[