Okay, this is not going to turn into the All Self Improvement, All the Time blog (although if it did, that would totally be okay because that is just how I am honoring my truth right now) (haaaaaaa they say this a lot in Barre3 but it’s usually with respect to how it’s acceptable to modify a move if it feels like your butt muscles are going to burst into flames and melt gruesomely off your body like that scene in Raiders of the Lost Ark) but as a follow up to yesterday’s post I wanted to share one more thing with you that I personally find really inspiring and who knows, maybe one of you will too.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the things from my past which have burdened me, the things which have piled up over time and made feel like I wasn’t a very good person. My struggles with alcoholism, the various poor choices I’ve made at various stages of my life. Lies I’ve told, mistakes I’ve made, people I’ve hurt.
I’ve been thinking about coming to terms with those past moments and acknowledging that while they happened, they’re behind me now. I don’t have to carry them with me, every prickle and hurt, flying them in bitter winds like hurtful flags of shame that keep me from being the person I know I’m capable of being. They don’t have to box me in, they don’t need to reduce who I am now or who I am going forward. They don’t have to make me a less valuable, lovable person.
Kintsugi or Kintsukuroi is the Japanese art of fixing broken pottery with lacquer resin dusted or mixed with powdered gold, silver, or platinum. The words mean golden joinery, or golden repair.
Do you see the glory in the bowl’s faults? How nothing is disguised or hidden, but rather brought into the light and made beautiful? How the bowl is stronger, thanks to the cracks that once broke it apart?