February 5, 2007

I stepped on the scale this morning and saw this: 143.

I weighed 149, I think, the last time I got on this same scale. It was at the end of the day, and I know that makes a difference, and plus, our scale is kind of hoopty, but STILL. WTF, I say. W.T.F. I look the same, I swear. Shouldn’t my jeans require an extra belt-hitch or something?

Anyway, thank you so much for your suggestions and ideas and commiseration, I can’t tell you how comforting/inspiring/all-around-awesome it is to get feedback on the whole nonthrilling exercise issue.

(I, uh, bought a “Turbo Jam” DVD. Which hopefully will get used, unlike my Carmen Electra Aerobic Striptease DVD which I’ve always been too embarrassed to actually follow.)

This week pretty much nothing is going to happen workout-wise, though, because I’m on single parent duty and really, that’s a cardio routine all on its own. From the military shower in the morning (soap up, rinse off, you’re OUT OF THERE SOLDIER) to the paranoid cell-phone checking to the Mint-400-style drive to daycare in the evening, my heart rate stays nicely elevated all day long. In fact, I might need to replenish my ion supply soon, and lucky for me JB has access to such a thing in Taipei right now:

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Yes, nothing like a refreshing can of Pocari Sweat to put the spring back in your step. Mmm mmm.

We talked with JB via webcam tonight and while Riley was excited and laughed hysterically at JB zooming his face towards his own camera and acting goofy, when it came time to sign off he broke down in tears. “Ba ba,” he sobbed, waving his little hand. “Ba ba Da Da.”

Oh, our little boy. He’s growing up so fast. Look:

I feel the need, periodically, to publicly declare my love for him, and so indulge me when I say he brightens my life in every possible way, he is the sunshine and the smell of everything happy and good. His stumpy, fast-forward walk makes me smile, the way his cornsilk hair feels under my hand soothes every bit of me. He frustrates me to no end, and yet my love for him grows and grows and grows, every day, every day. It’s just as I worried, when he was a newborn: will I keep loving him more? And more? How can I stand it? And the answer is yes, you will keep loving more and more and more, beyond what you ever thought you could stand, and your heart will accommodate.

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Emily
15 years ago

Oh, you. I don’t even HAVE a kid, and my insides still went all gooey from that video.

Pete
Pete
15 years ago

Nice video.

Emily
15 years ago

Oh, and P.S. You now weigh only five pounds more than I do, and I wear size 5s. So, hooray!

Lavinia
15 years ago

Brilliant. Truly amazing.

Can I hire you to come over and teach me how to do the whole music/video/put-it-on-my-blog thing? :)

Carolyn J.
15 years ago

That guy is so old, he’ll be older than me soon and I will have to call him Mr. Riley.

And BTW – smashing the ever-lovin’ shit out of a xylophone is a rite of passage.

Meg
Meg
15 years ago

The video is super cute. And that last paragraph was awesome! So moving and beautiful. I know you said you’ve thought about writing a novel – have you ever thought of writing a book about being a mom?

Sara
15 years ago

Great video! And talk of Taipei reminds me of our friends there, and our visit a few years ago. Love – steamed dumplings, Not so much love – stinky tofu. I hope he has a good trip;I know you’ll survive the week just fine.

zu
zu
15 years ago

Riley ( to the xylophone): Louder, LOUDER. MY TALENT MUST BE HEARD IN CHINA!

Awesome video.
Thank you for sharing.

JoAnn
JoAnn
15 years ago

OK, I have to say I melted on that video. He’s come so far, and he’s so loved. It’s a beautiful thing.

Keaton
Keaton
15 years ago

Pocari Sweat is the greatest drink ever invented by man.

Also, that video was very sweet.

jennifer
15 years ago

I dont have a blanket affection for all babies but i must say your kid is really cute :)
my family is from taipei and i

samantha jo campen
15 years ago

You and your videos. I should know by now that they will make me lumpy in my throat.

Oh, and I LOVE his belly! :-)

JMH
JMH
15 years ago

What is the name of the song you used in the video? I loved it! Thanks!!

Swistle
15 years ago

That video makes me so glad to be having another baby. And it gives new fire to my “What’s a 6th when you already have five?” campaign.”

Emma
Emma
15 years ago

Coming from someone who nigh-on detests small children, if I ever have any offspring I want them to be like Riley. He is so utterly gorgeous! Plus his laugh is infectious – the foot-tickling excerpt was lovely and made me completely crack up :)

Kaire
Kaire
15 years ago

I don’t have kids of my own, but last night, snuggled on my niece’s couch with both my great nephews laying on me watching Cars, I thought “this is what happiness is.” Of course then they started smacking each other because one was using more blanket than the other. Still, when you have little ones who just want to be with you, it’s such an amazing feeling!

Jennifer
15 years ago

He is really steady on his feet now! How confident he runs up and down the hallway.

I’m in Japan right now and the Pocari Sweat abounds…

Hey, will JB be returning to Seattle on Friday? Does he go through Narita? If so I might see him!

kendra!
15 years ago

I was moved to watch your son pat his belly in that first vignette – something which my husband does in his skivvies (thankfully, not the disposable kind anymore) every night. In other words, keep it up, Riley. Your place on the continuum of Developing Man Habits is a truly exciting one there at the starting line.

Her Ladyship
15 years ago

Smashing on the weight loss – congrats!

Joanne
15 years ago

Good for you on the weight loss – it’s so nice to lose weight and get some results fast so you can keep going! I feel you on the baby/love/frustration/love thing. It’s so so strange – the strangest relationship of my life, really. I love him so much and yet he makes me crazy and I want him to leave me ALONE sometimes but then after he goes to bed I want to look at pictures of him. It’s a beautiful confusing thing.

Stephanie Brown
15 years ago

Sundry,
It has been such a pleasure watching your child grow in your tummy and seeing him grow up. You have opened up your life to so many people and it has just been such a pleasure to witness it all. I am so looking forward to continuing to see your family grow! :)

Jamie
15 years ago

Check out http://www.fluidity.com. I purchased this last week.

JennB
JennB
15 years ago

Oh, parenthood. You’ve summed it up beautifully. Can I keep doing this love more and more? Is it even possible? Yes, it is. It most certainly is.
And the Ba-ba Da-Da? made my grinch heart grow 3 sizes too large.

kara marie
15 years ago

Wow. He’s growing so fast! Thanks for sharing that. :)

Ang
Ang
15 years ago

And that’s why God gave us kids.

kim
kim
15 years ago

I love pocari sweat , it is the asian gatorade and it tastes WAY BETTER.
I melted at Riley’s video, my little boy is so close yet so far from doing all those things. How bitter sweet to want to experience my child doing those things, but also keep him tiny and snuggled close and safe.

Melissa
Melissa
15 years ago

Great video of Riley! My husband’s traveling again this week too. Your description of the soldier shower is on the money. Congrats on the weight loss!

Amanda
15 years ago

Wait till you have two! It makes you feel like your entire body is one big gooey heart.

And Genoa already has the hots for Riley. She was on my lap when I watched the video and she totally melted.

Laura H
15 years ago

Wonderful video… And we store all these mushy thoughts up for when they are 8 and think that they can reason with you or worse, go ahead and try to ride their scooter down the slide in the backyard… Not that that’s ever happened to me or anything.

LeAnne
15 years ago

Yeah, the weight issue – I’m in the same boat, pretty much exactly the same weight as you also. I am absolutely convinced that my scale is a demonic piece of S*&# meant to taunt me and make me feel like I’ve actually lost weight. But like you said also, even though I have lost about 7lbs give or take any given day, there is no difference in my pant size. Good luck to you too!

Aunt Linda
Aunt Linda
15 years ago

OK, fess up. After you left the house last time, we found the OTHER stick for the xylophone. I’m sure you merely overlooked it, and I’ll bet you’d like it back, right? For that two-fisted harmony so desired. OK, then shall we just let Sundance have it? Much love.

Alexandra
15 years ago

Sundry – trust me, I feel your pain with the weight-loss thing … I was doing an hour to 90 minutes of INTENSE (sweat dripping in your eyes) cardio six days a week AND eating right for over a year. It worked – I got down from 170 to 143 … but then I got there stuck for like four months.

So, on January 13th I joined a gym, and have been going faithfully every day and lifting weights and doing all kinds of burning 700 calories an hour cardio … and three, almost four weeks later, I weigh the same and my measurements are the same … I hope my body fat percentage is getting lower! I am kind of scared to ask ….

Dr. B.
15 years ago

Someday I will have a computer that plays me the videos. Someday.

So then this would be the part where I go on and on about scales and weight and the like; instead, feel free to read the post I JUST put up this weekend about it. Seems to be on many people’s minds this time of year.

Cheers!

P.S. The other morning I woke up thinking about that chicken that will “cutchew” and laughed out loud.

Claudia
15 years ago

Re your last pp: I was feeling just that way about my daughters the other day. And, your heart also accomodates a second child. It seems to never run out of room for love.

Danell
Danell
15 years ago

you make me cry EACH AND EVERY TIME you write like that in that last paragraph. Perhaps it’s just having my own feelings echoed so perfectly.

jen
jen
15 years ago

aww. cute!!

Crystal
15 years ago

I just read my horoscope for today, and the first sentence was:

“Let your social instincts off the leash, and talk to all and sundry.”

I took “talk to all and sundry” as meaning I should leave you a comment. How much are you paying the horoscope people to plug your site? Hah!

steph
15 years ago

I missed your post yesterday about exercise, but agree with someone else’s comment to try Dance Dance Revolution. I bought one a few years ago and it’s a moderate cardio workout and fun, even when you aren’t trying very hard. And you can try harder, and sweat more, if you so choose. Added bonuses: fun at parties, and kids love it too.

There are tons of used DDR-like games on Craig’s List (full disclosure: I know this because I posted mine last weekend).

April
April
15 years ago

Yeah, alot of weight is water. I weight 131 all dehydrated in the morning and almost 135 in the evening after dinner.

Try out the hacker’s diet to see your actual weight trend:
http://www.fourmilab.ch/hackdiet/

My fiance and I love tracking our progress with this tool (the excel spreadsheet has all kinds of graphs and stuff). Nerds!!!

Lesley
Lesley
15 years ago

Here’s another tip for weight loss: Far Infrared Sauna. In 30 utterly delightful minutes you burn 600 calories. Check to see if there’s a place in Seattle that has saunas available for public use. Some Naturopaths have them built into their offices. My local huge health pharmacy has a really nice private one with a shower built in (you need to take a quick shower before and after). I’m thinking of buying the Sunlight Solo Infrared Sauna for home use. Here’s more info if you’re interested. http://www.infrared-sauna-reference.com/

The beauty of the infrared sauna is it detoxifies the body and cures all kinds of ailments. It’s pretty amazing. It’s also heavenly to sit in.

Mrs. Why
15 years ago

I love how he put the toy in his mouth to show you where his mouth is. He’s adorable and clever. What a sweet movie.

Anne L.
Anne L.
15 years ago

Whoa, what a little BOY! Such an awesome laugh.

LisaL
15 years ago

Note to self: Do not watch Sundry’s videos when your hormones are fluctuating more wildly than your weight.
Whew, crying makes me dehydrated! My son turns 18 next month, and I swear to you he was Riley’s age just last week. What a sweet video, and I loved the song you used. (Who does it?)

HollowSquirrel
15 years ago

Dude. Pocari Sweat is awesome. I lived on that stuff in Japan since it was 110 degrees in the shade with 3,483% humidity, and I’m basically albino. And they don’t stock water in vending machines, so Pocari Sweat saved me from becoming human jerky.

Jen
Jen
15 years ago

I echo the sentiments – what is the song? I love it!

Jennifer
15 years ago

Hey, on second viewing of that movie, I noticed he was banging the sh*t out of that xylophone with his LEFT hand. He may indeed be a lefty! Way to go Riley!

fellowmom
fellowmom
15 years ago

Love the video. My boys are just a bit older and a lot like Riley. Coincidentally, our boys even have some of the same clothes. (We shop Old Navy, Gap, Costco, etc.) I was so psyched when you found out you were pregnant shortly after I did. I have enjoyed seeing Riley growing up right along with mine.

Also, I’ve lost 42 lbs in the last 20 weeks. Some weeks, I eat well and don’t lose. Other weeks, I eat poorly and lose. The weeks the scale shows a loss, my clothes feel the same, but the weeks my scale shows a plateau, my clothes feel loser. So, I have not seen much correlation in the short term. Just focus on the long term and remember this week’s results when you are feeling discouraged.

Shawn
15 years ago

Well as your friendly neighborhood physician, I have to “weigh in” by saying that a person’s weight really doesn’t have much meaning now, its really all about body composition (i.e. lean body mass vs. fat mass). Ironically enough, I’ve seen people who decide to “lose weight”, head off to the gym to work out and are upset when they find out that they have actually gained weight. The simple fact is muscle weighs more than fat. So, don’t think of yourself as “fatter”, but instead think of your daily work out routine you’ve been doing since your little guy was born. He’s getting progressively heavier, so its more of a work out picking him up and carrying him each and every day. Simply put, you’re getting “buff”.

Gentry
15 years ago

Please birth more babies. That kid is so loved. There should be more kids who are so lucky.